Tuesday, July 5, 2011
What have I gotten myself into?
After yesterday I was feeling pretty defeated....this after hurting my knee somehow....I pushed myself to suck it up and push myself...I was the only one standing in my way...it was a muscle that I didn't use back home so its just a little angry...well, telling myself this was a complete and total lie....I awoke this morning to excruciating pain in the outside of my right knee...limping down to breakfast...then on to hiking....I ask my guide if the trail today was hilly..."oh yeah but you will be just fine"...LIAR....I lagged behind the entire 5.2 mile hike. Luckily after hike my class was stretching so I went ahead and went to the class. I decided to take it easy so after lunch I told the front desk that I was hurt and was not going to make my next class....ended up not going to any afternoon classes and laid in bed and iced my knees. Now here I sit once again in my bed wanting to go home and/or just not be here......I know that my day tomorrow will hold another hike, cardio, toning and H20....not sure how I will do it....what to do....what to do...I cant do everything that I am supposed to do to get everything from the program....I am lost, homesick and hurt.
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Julie, sometimes homesick, tired, hurt can be a good thing. But lost you aren't. You are a strong woman - God had a plan on sending you there - maybe it was the Dorothy of Wizard of Oz - There is no place like home. Maybe it was learning how much you miss home, kids and hubby. The kids are fine, your hubby is doing a wonderful job. Maybe Julie needs to realize what a strong woman she is - and if it were easy there would be no need for the camp. Do what you gotta do - but remember your sister and I are cancer survivors - we didn't have a choice when we were tired, homesick, and hurt - we had to dig in to survive and it wasn't easy. you know we all love you.
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